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One Last GoodbyeWriting one last letter, saying one last good-bye,
My blood falling to the floor, as if coming from the sky.
"You told me that you love me, but we could never be,
I cannot live without you, so I'm doing this you see."
"If we cannot be together, then I don't want to live,
I've got nothing left at all, nothing left to give."
I close the envelope softly, seal it wish a kiss,
Turn to look the other way, and wait for my dismiss.
EscapeI'm trying to escape,
trying to get away,
trying to ignore what they do,
forget about what they say.
No move I ever make,
can ever be one right,
every simple thing I say,
always starts a fight.
I'm sorry I'm not perfect,
the way I'm supposed to be,
the thing is your slowly killing me,
why can't you see?
I'd really like to run away,
where someone would understand,
to someone who could see my pain,
and gently take my hand.
Sorry.I'm sorry for the things I do,
sorry for the things I say.
Sorry that I talked to you,
sorry that I'm this way.
I'm sorry that I trusted you,
and sorry that I lied.
Sorry that I laughed at you,
sorry that I cried.
I'm sorry that I hated you,
I'm sorry I loved you too,
I'm sorry that you broke my heart,
and that it still belongs to you.
No EmotionsSometimes it's easy,
Sometimes it's not.
Sometimes it's cold,
Sometimes it's hot.
Sometimes I smile,
Sometimes I grin.
Sometimes I lose,
Sometimes I win.
Sometimes I pout,
Sometimes I frown.
Sometimes I'm up,
Sometimes I'm down.
Sometimes I'm sweet,
Sometimes I'm nice.
Sometimes I laugh,
Sometimes I cry.
And then there's those days...
I want to die.
Suicide After DeathAs they look upon her casket,
tears in their eyes,
wondering why she did this,
they can't seem to help but cry.
What they don't know would hurt them,
suicide was her dismiss,
but could you call it suicide?
she was dead so long before this.
I ChangedTrying to cover the tears, trying not to show my fears.
Why do I keep it all inside? My pain getting harder to hide.
I used to be cheery, it used to be real.
But now it's different, and they're making some big deal.
Saying "Why are you so sad?" and "You look depressed."
Can't you just leave me alone, let it rest?
So maybe I've changed...what's that got to do with you?
Just because I've changed? Well maybe you have too.
Can't Help Loving YouI really cannot help it,
It says so in my heart,
I really cannot help it,
Though I didn't feel so at the start.
But now we're closer and I realize,
I'm lucky to have you,
All the things you say to me,
The sweetest things you do.
You cheer me up,
When I am down,
You make me smile,
When I frown.
You may not ever realize,
My feelings deep and true,
You may not ever notice,
I can't help loving you.
I'll never stop loving you, there's no way I could.
Stone HeartThe stone wall is peaking,
Making it's rise to the top.
I try not to think about us often,
I've simply put my heart on stop.
When people look at me,
All that pity in their eyes,
I stare back with my fake contempt,
Causing them to step back in surprise.
They say I take things quite well,
They think I'm doing just fine,
But truth is, I'm not taking it at all,
although deep down I've lost my shine.
I had this gut feeling from the start,
That I would end up broken,
But an idea called love got in the way,
Now on bitter tears I'm chokin'.
In my imagination you were different,
You were just the boy of my dreams,
But reality kicked me in the face,
You're just every other boy, it seems.
Instead of breaking down,
Like any normal girl could,
The stone wall is now peaking,
Just like I knew it would.
Moving OnWhy don't I want to leave, yet I do?
Is it because I won't see you?
Will I miss this okay place?
Or will I miss your smiling face?
Will I miss the people here?
Or is it you I hold so dear?
Will I miss the past behind?
Or is it you stuck in my mind?
Will I miss the sky so blue?
Or dear friend will I miss you?
Come a little closer, Come to me.
I am the only one, That can set you free.
Your friends and family, They don't care.
So I'll be your friend, Since no ones there.
I can cure depression, I can stop the tears.
I can take away the pain, That you felt for years.
I'll never break a promise, I'll never tell a lie.
I'll never be the one, That makes you wanna die.
I'll be right there, Until the end.
And I promise to be, Your very best friend.
So come a little closer, Come to me.
I am the only one, That can set you free.
Your broken heart, Will become a spade.
Now no more heart ache,
Love Sincerely, Razor Blade.
P.S. I'll try not to hurt you, But there's no guarantee.
You might even like, The sharp side of me.
Dear Razor Blade,
I Came to you. You lied to me,
You caged me up, And didn't set me free.
My friends and family, They did care.
You weren't my friend, But you were there.
You didn't cure depression, You caused crimson tears.
You gave me more pain, That I will feel for years.
EverLet me hold your hand
and never let go
Let me kiss your lips
and feel your breath on my neck
Let me embrace you
and forever feel your warmth
Let me love you
and never have to part with you
Stand Tall Stand Tall
You might ask why
because this is my last goodbye
I had to try
I thought I might feel something as I wrote this
Another chance to start
You hurt me
You cast me aside
When life got tough
When things got rough
When I needed your arms just to hold me
You sold me
You looked me over
But you could no longer behold me
You were my world
We would lay back and giggle
Joking about how one day you would be my wife
It was all a lie
You severed every tie
You couldn't look me in the eye
You couldn't hear my voice
You made your choice
You tossed me aside
And walked away
Leaving me with so many things left to say
But I'm betrayed...
By echos in my heart
Longing for you to stay
I will not crawl
I will not beg
I will Stand tall
Or not at all
I was your puppet
Dancing along to every whim
Seeing the truth...
I could not begin
I followed your faith blindly
But now I can see
How things really used to be
A love once bright and
The Last RoseMy final words
The last goodbye
One more verse
One last line
As in life, so in death
With a heart no longer mine to give
Here I am for all the world to see
For the first time
And the last time
There is no shadow without light
Without light, there is only dark
My light burns a million miles away
And do words mean anything
What happens when the music ends
Before the sand fades away
Will you dance in the dark with me
With one final calling
And nothing on my tongue but truth
I will love you 'til the last rose dies
he wont hurt you anymoreI know it hurts
I know it's sad
you loved him so
and he got mad
But don't you run
And don't you cry
I'll still sing you
He may be gone
But I'm still there
Forget the tricks
Forget the lies
Think of tomorrow
When today dies.
Be strong now
The hurt will pass
The sun will come
The pain won't last
Oh really?Okay, maybe that wasn't fair, shaking my head and laughing in your face.
But after all you did, you expect to get rid of it with a little lace?
You think you can text me and be nice and make it all okay?
Why are you doing this, anyway?
Oh, it's because I'm better? At what, pray tell?
You just say I know exactly what I do so well.
Oh, so he's that bad, you want me now?
Well forget it, I've got a girlfriend now.
She's better than you in every possible way.
She cares about me and shows it every day.
I'm better than him in every way, and you know it too.
And I take great pleasure in knowing I'm not with you.
So, you think you can try flash me and I'll let it go?
Your breasts aren't that nice, and I looked away I'll have you know.
And you really think I'd still want to have sex with you?
I'm sorry, but I don't know where you've been, and I don't want to.
Lost and FoundLost and Found
Here I am walking around aimlessly
Scars surround every part of my body
Lies are all that I seem to know
Tears no longer come out
Just the supreme silence
I walk for what seems to be forever
I lose the strength that I have to stand
I was done, I was done with trying
I wanted to sit and rot
But there you were
The flickering light in my hurt eyes
You came for me...came running
At this close to dead corpse
You whispered thoughts of hope- often true thoughts
It was never merely flattery, and overreacted words
Nor was it fake for secret intentions
It was honest, kind, true
You are the only one that makes me feel this way
Because you are the first one you found ME
I want desperately to say I love you my friend
You help in me in so many ways.
-March 2, 2012-
Love, a Funny Four Letter Wordhavoc
is a funny word.
you and me
are two funny beings
dying in their own funny ways with
funny liquids seeping from their wounds
[i know mine is a combination of
vodka and olive oil and sanguine
tears, i don't know about yours]
and other funny things on their
like funny stories. you know i
always loved your funny stories.
like the one where you were
talking about your mom and i being
your slaves and we started laughing and
i said "hahahahaha fuck you."
you laughed your hardest
but that was you in the time
that was 'then', and i'm afraid that
this is 'now' and i can't seem to get
over how we seemingly skipped the
in between. the in between where you
were supposed to hold me close and
really savor the blood in your mouth.
my blood. god, did you ever? because
i'm drowning in the taste of yours as
or rather, as we don't.
MisunderstandingPitter Patter, goes the rain.
Her cry, filled with pain.
Where is he?
Where did he go?
Didn't I see him? Just a minute ago?
He was here, and now he's gone.
And now a thought begins to dawn....
He's left her, he's moved on.
She loved him, he loved her too.
Or so she thought, and in her mind, a plan begins to brew.
She'll get back at him, oh yes!
She will, she'll make him pay.
She'll even kill.
He took her heart.
She took her life.
And now that man has lost his wife.
He didn't leave her, he hadn't moved on.
He was too late....and now she's gone.
Pitter Patter goes the rain.
And now his cry is filled with pain.
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