I ChangedTrying to cover the tears, trying not to show my fears.Why do I keep it all inside? My pain getting harder to hide.I used to be cheery, it used to be real.But now it's different, and they're making some big deal.Saying "Why are you so sad?" and "You look depressed."Can't you just leave me alone, let it rest?So maybe I've changed...what's that got to do with you?Just because I've changed? Well maybe you have too.Everyone changes.
EscapeI'm trying to escape,trying to get away,trying to ignore what they do,forget about what they say.No move I ever make,can ever be one right,every simple thing I say,always starts a fight.I'm sorry I'm not perfect,the way I'm supposed to be,the thing is your slowly killing me,why can't you see?I'd really like to run away,where someone would understand,to someone who could see my pain,and gently take my hand.
Sorry.I'm sorry for the things I do,sorry for the things I say.Sorry that I talked to you,sorry that I'm this way.I'm sorry that I trusted you,and sorry that I lied.Sorry that I laughed at you,sorry that I cried.I'm sorry that I hated you,I'm sorry I loved you too,I'm sorry that you broke my heart,and that it still belongs to you.
Hey, Pretty Girlhey, pretty girl,try not to cry.i know he broke your heart,it all was just a lie.hey, pretty girl,try and smile just for me.forget all about him,he's worthless as can be.hey, pretty girl,don't let this bring you down.you've got far too pretty a smile,to waste it on a frown.
One Last GoodbyeWriting one last letter, saying one last good-bye,My blood falling to the floor, as if coming from the sky."You told me that you love me, but we could never be,I cannot live without you, so I'm doing this you see.""If we cannot be together, then I don't want to live,I've got nothing left at all, nothing left to give."I close the envelope softly, seal it wish a kiss,Turn to look the other way, and wait for my dismiss.
MisunderstandingPitter Patter, goes the rain.Her cry, filled with pain.Where is he?Where did he go?Didn't I see him? Just a minute ago?He was here, and now he's gone.And now a thought begins to dawn....He's left her, he's moved on.She loved him, he loved her too.Or so she thought, and in her mind, a plan begins to brew.She'll get back at him, oh yes!She will, she'll make him pay.She'll even kill.He took her heart.She took her life.And now that man has lost his wife.He didn't leave her, he hadn't moved on.He was too late....and now she's gone.Pitter Patter goes the rain.And now his cry is filled with pain.
Can't Help Loving YouI really cannot help it,It says so in my heart,I really cannot help it,Though I didn't feel so at the start.But now we're closer and I realize,I'm lucky to have you,All the things you say to me,The sweetest things you do.You cheer me up,When I am down,You make me smile,When I frown.You may not ever realize,My feelings deep and true,You may not ever notice,I can't help loving you.I'll never stop loving you, there's no way I could.
Open CasketAn open casket,a black rose.I bend over her body,my tears stain her clothes.I feel their empty hugs,they say I'm in their prayers.As I mourn her death,upon me are their stares.They say they understand me,say they know how I feel.But I can see their steely glares,they pretend this isn't real.I say my dear goodbye,they lower her into the ground.I throw myself upon the dirt,and weep without a sound.
No EmotionsSometimes it's easy,Sometimes it's not.Sometimes it's cold,Sometimes it's hot.Sometimes I smile,Sometimes I grin.Sometimes I lose,Sometimes I win.Sometimes I pout,Sometimes I frown.Sometimes I'm up,Sometimes I'm down.Sometimes I'm sweet,Sometimes I'm nice.Sometimes sugar,Sometimes spice.Sometimes I laugh,Sometimes I cry.And then there's those days...I want to die.
Invisible Girlshe's the girl who doesn't talk,too hurt to say a thing.she's the girl who misses you,seeing you makes her heart pang.she's the girl who hardly cries,she wants to come off tough.she's the girl who fakes a smile,you'd never know her life was rough.she's the girl who you put last,but say you love her most.she's the girl who'd cry & cry,if you became a ghost.she's the girl who messes up,she can't do anything right.she's the girl who gives up first,no, she won't win the fight.she's the girl who'd give everything up,just to be with you.she's the girl who needs you most,the girl you look right through.
"Best Friend"You left me here,alone in the cold.I can almost see the wind blow.It brings back memories,memories of you.The way you used to smile,you know, back we were two.three musketeers minus one, "best friends".The warth of your hug,and those silly jokes you told,while trying to cheer me up, force one smile out of me.I opened up to you, telling you everything.& now thinking back I realize...you told me nothing.Nothing worth knowing, anyway.Whatever happened? Did you just get bored?I'm not always cheery, not always interesting,but I thought best friends was more than that.Maybe I was too eager,eager to believe I finally had someone,some to call my best friend.Because you...you were the closest to it,almost the closest I'd ever had.& now,now you're just every other "friend" in the hallway.
FlawedInsecurities.Screaming at me,haunting me,clawing at every inchof my body.That little voice inside my headsounding strangely like my own,tearing me down,apart,from the inside.Each hate-filled blow,hits harder than the last.Each self-inflicted cut,each burn,hidden in shame,nonexistent to the piercing eyes of others,visible only in that lonely mirror reflection.Puffy eyes,tear-stained cheeks,little dotted lines drawnover every flawed bit of me.Not pretty enough,talented enough,smart enough,good enough.There is not a perfect inchwithin my being.Why can't I be beautiful?
Silent Killer.silent.silent screams.silent whispers.silent sobs.silent tears.silent cries.silent secrets.silent depression.silent heartbreak.silent hate.silent evil.deadly.
Moving OnWhy don't I want to leave, yet I do?Is it because I won't see you?Will I miss this okay place?Or will I miss your smiling face?Will I miss the people here?Or is it you I hold so dear?Will I miss the past behind?Or is it you stuck in my mind?Will I miss the sky so blue?Or dear friend will I miss you?
LiarsIn this world where a single creatureCan split atoms, what will the future bring-In this world so filled with liars,Just like me.
The WarA young girl.Broken and torn.On the verge of tears.Keeping it all inside.She's laughing and smiling.So you assume she's all right.But deep down she isn't.Fighting herself.The war rages on.The battles are fierce.But no tears are shed.Just blood.No matter what happens.Everything she tries.She loses every battle.And the war continues on.FOREVER.
What HappenedWe used to be so close,the best of family.The two of us,just you and me.You knew everything about me,I thought that I knew you;But the you I knew was different,I didn't have a clue.We were as close, as close could get,but then it happened, you two split.And the my trust,just kind of quit.How could you?you lied to me.When you left,it made me see.So many things you'd told me,were all just stupid lies.When it was truly official,I finally opened my eyes.What happened to us?what happened to we?What happened to you?what happened to me?Now I haven't got anyone,nobody I can trust.Haven't got anyone to tell,so keep it in I must.We're not the same now,although we're still family.Just not close, not anymore,not like it used to be.
Oh, Beautiful Girlher beauty,shines as bright as a star.glows palely in the moonlight.burns radiant in the sunshine.her eyes,soft and sensual, like a mother's touch.big and green, pretty like money.the key to her heart, mind, and soul.her lips,as smooth as cocoa butter.juicy as a ripe red apple.longing to feel a lover's kiss.her heart,cold like a winter frost.lonely like a high school geek.cracked like a broken record.her mind,deep like the ocean blue.sharp like a razorblade.wandering like a lost soul.her body,petite like a china doll.her skin a milky white.warm to the touch, like fire.her soul,torn like a ripped piece of paper.heavy, weighing her down like a sin.free like a wild spirit.can't you see why I love her?
I'm Tired of Breaking HeartsDoes anyone else ever get tired of breaking hearts?When you handed me your love,I tried so hard to hold it carefully in my hand.I tried my best to keep it pretty,So that it would sparkle in the glow of moonlight,And diamonds would dance on its surface in the sparkle of sunlight.I tried so hard you know.But it's difficult to balance all my insecurities,All my thoughts that I couldn't ever tell you,All my problems that I never actually told you about,All the secrets I kept form you,Everything that I had to keep balanced in one hand,Whilst in the other I kept your heart.It was inevitable that I would drop it eventually.That person at the back of my mind was the last nudge,Before everything fell apart.He told me what I wanted to hear,And he was the voice inside my head that convinced me,That it was all over.Your heart slipped between my fingers,Glinting one last time as it flew,Cascading to the floor, and shattered.Looking down at the pieces I knew I had no option,Bu
My icy prisonI smile at you from my frozen prison,I know I won't get out,so what are you fussing about.that's a given.I stare as you fight the ice,my cold face,frozen in place.you're pretty nice.Though I don't know why you bother,I stare at you,and I don't have a clue,why you even try.This is my prison,there's no way out,no matter how much you shout.why have you risen?I've told you there's no hope,please tell me why,why do you still try?how do you cope.You confuse me,completely unfazed,you leave me dazed.you're something to see.What's that sound,the wall,begins to fall.cracking is heard all around.I stare at your smiling facecompletely shocked,that it's been unlocked.I fall to that place.In your arms I land,looking at your face,my heart beats at an unfamiliar pace.that smiling face so grand.The ice melts away,that is my surprise,after looking in those eyes.the warmth is here to stay.
Already DeadWhy, oh why, did you give up trying?You could have told me all those nights you stayed up cryingAt this point, it doesn't matter what I've saidBecause, by now, it seems like you're already deadI've tried so hard to give you the worldBut you ignored it, and into a tight ball you curledAway from me, from everyone, you stayedHiding, oh what a big mess we've madeHow long have I sat here sighing?Doesn't matter, since you're already dyingRotting away, bitter at meFor only wanting you to look around and seeThey care, dear friend, they really doPlease don't make me have to find youDead, alone, and gone from this lifeBecause I can no longer stand your ongoing strife.
Shattered GlassShattered GlassI belong to the shadows of the past,a small reminder of a better place,and when the time is right will you remember my face,worn and tired like a cracked mask,will you still know who i am?will you remember all that i was,for when i return to your life it shall be in the next,above the rocks and the earth,how much was my soul really worth,an answer i dont want to hear,as your voice fell upon my ears,in one moment those fears,manifest themselves as tears,and now as i lay my weary head down upon my bed,it all comes back,in the softest of whispers,into my soul these words shall pass,upon my mind like shattered glassBoyInTheFire
DisarrayDisarray I wish I couldn't feel anymore.Unbearable this pain is.I wish to be cold,A heart of stone.Where no emotion can penetrate.Unwanted; a lonely life.To bare a state of abandonment.This mortal coil is choking me.Leaving me gasping for air.Quiver unaided, I can't breathe.A lonesome road.Pitch black darkness.Light nowhere to be found.The odds pitted against me.Those prying eyes are waiting; waiting,For me to make a mistake.For me to slip and fall.Unscrupulous euphoria of my failure,Fill their heart's unending sorrow.And I, trying to stand up again,Is broken by a thought; a longing.Happiness eludes me.My tears drench my face.Empty and stripped of faith.Hope seems to be a distant memory.This vicious cycle of life
Pleasure to meet you"Pleasure to meet you" (An Introduction)I am so pleased to meet you on my way,But I can't stay for much longer than this,The chains that held me fast have fell away,To let me reach above this small abyss.You smile politely like you understand,But frankly do you really give a damn?Like weary travellers we must now disband,And move on to what is life's next exam.It's therefore been such an experience,One that, I know, I can't ever regret.Like strangers passing on a summer's night,I can't remember much but it felt right.
Alone In The SilenceSilence is the worst for me too much time to think too many memories to miss too few dreams to wish for.Loneliness forces its way inside alone without friends alone without love alone and scared.It's quiet and I sit alone despair begins to consume as agony rules my emotions darkness has come for me.
Butterfly NetThey tell her there's something wrong,She's sensed it herself before,Lying like a butterfly in their net,She cannot fight this twisted game.They told her she had to take the pills,To make everything go away,Listening to her own common sense,She did as they had asked.The nightmares went away then,But so did her dreams
She'd much rather forget the world,Than to lose her soul in the process,She stopped with all the nonsense,Put her foot down and firmly said no.It's not worth living in a dull world,Where all colors fade to nothing,Flavors turn to ash, emotions turn to stone,She had to break away from the chains.
HeartacheI wish my heart would listen to my headIt would save so much pain and confusionIgnorance is not blissFalling in love just as painful as goodbyeI wish I could just make it go awayWe all have to live with the painBut could it be just a little lessJust a little less.
Suicide After DeathAs they look upon her casket,tears in their eyes,wondering why she did this,they can't seem to help but cry.What they don't know would hurt them,suicide was her dismiss,but could you call it suicide?she was dead so long before this.